Dear Sister in Christ, dear fellow care-giving wife, it’s the best of days when you are mind-blown, blown away, filled to overflowing with the knowledge of God’s love for you.
NOT all days are like this. In fact, most days we trudge along. One step, one foot in front of the other.
Then God takes off the blinders when you just refuse to let go of Him and His love. God, I will not let you go unless you bless me. Like Job, you know deep down — though He slay me, I will trust in Him.
Just one tiny glimpse of a few truths of Scripture where God shows His love, and I feel like the richest lady on earth. I’m writing this to remember this day. I’m setting up my memorial stones, and telling myself, remember. Don’t forget. God loves you dearly, fully, completely in Christ Jesus.
I want to tell you, too. I’m hoping you will be encouraged along with me. If you’re at all like me, you need it. You struggle like me to desperately believe and hang on to hope in God’s unfailing goodness and love for you.
What sparked this epiphany? Valentines Day? Naaah. Actually, that’s a hard holiday for those of us whose husbands are too laid up with health issues to be that romantic knight in shining armor.
In fact, I’ll turn off my FB feed that day. I don’t need to feed the feelings of longing when I see my friends light up and share all the wonderful things their truly good hubs do for them. I am blessed by their godly love. I really am. But I don’t need to wallow in what I am missing.
What I have is actually waaay more wonderful!
The Lord my Maker is my Husband.
He sings over me.
He rejoices over me.
He came looking for me, and brought me into His house of love.
He says all the riches of His eternal kingdom are mine forever.
He tells me over and over that He will provide for my needs. And He has. So very faithfully and just in time.
Where do I see His love painted in such big, broad brushstrokes? First, in Jesus’ broken body, hanging on the cross for my sins, eternal love is painted in blood.
Next, I see His compassion poured out on those whom society rejected: the weak, the blind, the sick, the lame, the lepers, the prostitutes, the tax collectors (thieves by their day’s standards), and the Prodigal Son. This means compassion for sick husbands, too, unable to provide for their wives.
The disabled, the abnormal, the “special needs” among us all find equal grace and equal royal privileges at the foot of the cross.
Let me illustrate this point.
In the Bible, mentioned more than once, are a special category of people called “eunuchs”. Ha! I’d always glossed over that until recently.
Eunuchs are a special class of people also mentioned in Augustine’s works, known as “hermaphrodites”. A certain class of these were forbidden by the Law of Moses to enter into temple worship. (Deut. 23:2) Outcasts by no fault of their own.
But Jesus did not ignore this problem. (Matt. 29:12) In fact, unique prophecies included eunuchs with amazing promises given to them.
One of the most remarkable of these eunuchs was Daniel. A man who could not enter God’s temple entered into God’s presence in prayer so faithfully that angels literally fought the powers of hell to bring answers to his prayers.
In Isaiah 56 God lavishes beautiful, rich promises on these persons with special needs and physical abnormalities.
Finally, in a burst of gospel beauty, Philip encounters the Ethiopian eunuch who is reading Isaiah. Philip is specifically commanded by the Spirit to speak to the eunuch about Jesus.
The eunuch then asks a loaded question,
” What prevents me from being baptized?” Acts 8:26-28
Philip, a blue-blood Jew, understood what doors God’s grace had opened.
Boom! Baptized then and there. No second-class church membership for this eunuch.
In Christ alone we find this wholeness, a total acceptance in the Beloved. His perfect love lavishes His perfect beauty on His children. Now that’s more than any husband could give to me this Valentine’s Day.